To the church in Ephesus, Jesus commends their hard work, their endurance, their discernment, their refusal to tolerate evil, and their ability to test false teachers and expose lies. He commends them specifically for one thing worth pausing on. You hate the works of the Nicolaitans, He says in Revelation 2:6, which I also hate. The Nicolaitans are named only twice in the entire Bible, here and again a few verses later to the church in Pergamum, and their exact origin is genuinely uncertain, but what Scripture does tell us is clear enough. Their teaching is placed directly alongside the teaching of Balaam, the Old Testament prophet who counseled Balak to seduce Israel into idolatry and sexual immorality by inviting them to pagan feasts, and the early church father Clement of Alexandria described the Nicolaitans as a group who abandoned themselves to pleasure and self-indulgence. In plain terms, this was a movement inside the early church that had learned to dress compromise up as liberty, teaching that a believer could participate in the idolatrous, immoral culture around them and call it freedom in Christ rather than what it actually was, sin wearing the language of grace. Ephesus hated that teaching, and Jesus commended them for it. Then, in the same breath, He said, I have this against you, that you have left your first love. That should stop every reader of this site cold, myself included. You can correctly identify every counterfeit in these chapters, you can hate every false teaching by name the way Ephesus hated the Nicolaitans, and still lose the one thing that made any of it matter in the first place. Leaving your first love does not happen in a moment. It happens slowly, in the quiet spaces where devotion gets replaced by discipline, where relationship gets replaced by routine, where truth becomes something you defend instead of Someone you abide in. I lived in this church for years without recognizing it. I knew the right answers, I could identify false teaching, and I served in ministry, yet somewhere under all of that activity, the love that had drawn me to Jesus in the first place had quietly become secondary to the performance of being right, and finding first love again was like breathing for the first time after years of not knowing I had been holding my breath. What makes the letter to Ephesus so beautiful is where it lands. Jesus calls them back with mercy, telling them to remember where they have fallen, repent, and do the first works again, and He promises that the one who overcomes will eat from the tree of life, reaching all the way back to Genesis 3:22, where humanity was barred from that tree so we would not live forever in a fallen state. What was lost in Eden is restored in Christ, and that promise surfaces here, in a letter to a tired church that had forgotten its first love, including a church made up of people like me who spent all of this learning to spot deception and needed reminding that spotting it is not the same thing as loving Him.
I found myself in that letter in a way I did not expect. While I was writing this site, my Facebook was suddenly taken from me, disabled with no warning, and around the same time the manuscript I had been pouring myself into came back scrambled, disordered, pieces of it out of place. I did what I have always done, the thing this whole chapter is quietly about. I rolled up my sleeves and set out to fix all of it myself. I worked and I strategized and I problem-solved, using every ounce of the marketing mind I have leaned on my whole life, determined to put it back together through sheer effort. I could not see anything wrong with that, because it felt like diligence. It felt like doing the first works. But the Holy Spirit stopped me, gently, and showed me what was actually happening underneath it. The enemy was not only trying to slow the work down. He was using my own competence against me, maneuvering me into proving to God, through my frantic self-reliance, that I wanted to build this thing on my own strength, without leaning on the One who had given it to me in the first place. That is the Ephesus drift exactly. I was working hard, hating the right things, doing the right tasks, and quietly, without noticing, I had let go of my first love and picked up my own two hands instead. I had to repent of that. I had to set the whole thing down and say, out loud, that I could not do this without Him and did not want to. That is the only reason you are reading it at all.